I feel like a goalie right now.I have had the whole day to reflect on my actions and some of the goals I had hoped to achieve by the end of the day. It's been a chore, but in a way...it reminded me of something. Arsenal won their first cup in nine years! Epic, right?
So, why do I feel this way?
I lost out on a writing competition after making it to the second round. I know there are many more opportunities- but I looked at my submission and realized that I lost because I started on the theme but in the middle deviated from it. It's something I should have seen during the revision process but didn't and it's cost me a shot at $650.
Have you ever felt so drab? When you make a mistake it often costs you something, but the one thing that matters is how you get back up. A goalie goes to every match carrying the hopes of his team and fans on his shoulder, but my favorite Goalie of all time Edwin Van Der Sar once said, "It's not easy being a goalie, but you learn to know it's just you and the ball, and your hands. You have to catch that ball."
You have to try in life, if you don't try then you'll never know what it means to catch a ball, or watch it slip through your fingers.
I am not happy with myself, and I know I will not make the same mistake again- but for what it's worth I thank Grace for being happy about Arsenal's win, and I hope that she'll finally find Ozil as adorable as I do.
How can one change the world if one identifies oneself with everybody?